Life and Faith

Rejection. It’s probably one of the worst feelings in the world. It makes us feel unloved, incompetent and incomplete. It hits likes a wound that cut deep in our heart. Rejection can come in many forms: career, relationships, familial, and spiritual. The scale of rejection can vary – it can be a minor rejection or a major rejection.  Whatever the form or scale, there is one thing in common with every rejection; you were denied something that you thought would make you feel happier. That is why it hurts so much, you thought you found another piece of your puzzle, but It gets knocked out of your hand. At that time, you feel like your life will never be complete now that a piece is gone. Therefore, the best thing we think we can do is to avoid rejection at all cost. We don’t want to risk the pain that comes from it. We start to limit our friendship circle, we become cautious about who we get close with, we want to make sure that the chance of rejection is minimal. But I thi...

My skin warms My feelings are blurred. I am uncertain But I can see it. I want to But I am afraid. One step at a time, But it’s too late. Now, it’s gone The spark extinguished. Left in the blackness. Was there ever a fire? 

I thought it would be good to do a list of my goals for the year 2018. Instead of writing one long blog, I’m going to post one blog for each one of my goals. So here we go! My first goal for 2018, is of course faith. While I do believe my faith in God has improved over the past few years, there is still a lot of room for growth. Below are two areas I like to see myself improve in. First, I would like to see my myself being able to have the patience and resilience to trust God wholeheartedly during times of struggles and adversity. While it is always comforting to know that God is placing me through obstacles and challenges with a purpose and a plan. I will think to myself “ok, cool God. When is it going to be over? I get the lesson; can we move on now?”. I want to truly trust in God and find joy in challenging times, instead of hoping that it will be over quickly. One of my favorite life advice is to “enjoy the process of life”. God has the perfect plan for me - each and eve...

2017. It was a year of disappointment. After a tough year in 2016, I had high hopes and inspiration for 2017. It was going to be my bounce-back year. It was the year that I learn from all the difficulty and hardship from 2016 and blossom in all areas of my life. Goals and standards were set high and my aspiration was it's top. However, it all fell short.  The start of the first semester, I was feeling quite good. I had my major sorted out. I was quite confident, even overconfident. After a mediocre 2016, I was determined to achieve the marks I did in 2015. I was spending more time studying, I had a determined focus and my expectations were high. However, when I receive my mark for the first test I did. I was shocked. I couldn't understand it, why did I receive such a mediocre mark? I put in so much effort in my studies. If this was 2015, I would have got at least 17/20. Soon I chalked it up as just bad luck, and I will do better in my next test. However, this was not the c...

Lately, I’ve been stressed and feeling quite down. I’ve been thinking a lot about myself – how I need to find a graduate job, how I need to find more time to read, how I need to use my time more productively. It feels like my focus has been restricted to only me and my own problems. All these thoughts have made me feel quite overwhelmed and have consumed my mind. I feel like I no longer have the energy for other things outside of myself. Let me ask you the questions I’ve been asking myself: How many times do you think about yourself in a day? How often do you relate things back to yourself? For many of us, the answer is countless. From when we wake up to when we go to sleep. Even when we are dreaming, we are constantly thinking about ourselves. This can be study, work, or relationships, we are constantly turning it back to ourselves and how it will affect us - our pride, our ego, our self-image and our self-esteem in life. We always seem to have a ‘me’ variabl...